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2 months: Gummy bear
5 months: It's a girl!
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I'm in Romania and it's really gorgeous, or should I say "fuarte fromossa." The spelling purely a guess. I don't have anyone here to explain it to me due to the fact that they all speak a different language. The people here are the nicest people on the face of the Earth and skinniest too. Out of the thousands of people I've seen here, I can count the overweight ones on my fingers and toes. No joke. They really care about each other here. They love like the church says to love,"any and all." For we are all God's children. Not one person has looked down on my for my rediculously large holes in my ears or for my tattoos. The children stare, but don't care. The kids here are so well behaved it's scary. I only pray that I can raise my kids however these good people did it. It's not through discipline, but love. The is probably the best experience of my life. Next to getting married to the love of my life. Only 'cause I have not yet become a father. I'm sure it will be everything I hope for and more. The driving is even too much for me to handle. The people drive in all lanes both ways. They go around everyone, nearly hitting them all. And they park all over the sidewalk and anywhere they can fit. The Politia don't seem to mind at all. No one follows the speed limit. Leevu said that as long as you keep it reasonable, they don't seem to mind. What else..............We've seen many beautiful castles and the most beautiful churches on the face of the Earth. Although the people drive really crazy and honk constantly just to warn of their presence, they communicate alot. They always put down the windows and talk to each other for directions or for favors. It seems that our only communication is our middle fingers. It doesn't seem only like a whole new country, but like a whole new world. Theirs alot more, but I don't want you to give up on reading before I finish, so I'll talk to whoever you are about it later.
Ciao
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Yesterday at work someone hit me with their forklift at about 5:00 a.m. It was perfect timing 'cause now we both had to take a piss test and whenever that happens the result don't come back untill late on the second day, so I had the rest of yesterday off and today off all payed for. I love my dumbass company
rules. And I especially love not having to work but still getting payed for it. I got another ferret last Friday. His name is Davey after the lead singer of A Fire Inside. Buddy plays with him way too rough and likes to bite his neck skin and drag him across the floor. It sucks 'cause now I have to let them out either separately or monitor their playing/killing of each other. Buddy's just way to big to play like that with a ten week old. Davey is so fucking cute. I finally made a date to move out and it is May 1st. I'm so sick of living with my sister and her baby. So instead I'm moving into a place with my cousin. It should be nice not listening to a baby scream or my sister ruining every movie in the fucking world. I keep calling Matthew lately wanting to hang out since he's up here, but he's always busy except for the one day where I had plans. It sucks. Although it pisses me off, I know it's not his fault. I LOVE YOU MATTHEW! Tomorrow we are going to Ellensburg to hang out and go to a party. It should be fun. I'm excited 'cause I can hopefully finally get fucked up with him. I don't recall ever being fucked up buddies with him before. It's going to be an awesome time. I'm at Ligia's right now which is cool and since I'm trying to cut down on the spending of money for awhile and since everything costs money than we are just probably gonna go to the mall. I love going to the mall when I don't want to spend any money. It's fantastic! I've been working out alot lately and it kind of sucks 'cause all I do at the gym is compare myself to these other guys that are just fucking giants. I know that people tell my that I'm huge, but compared to some of these guys I aint shit. Oh well at least I'm bigger than average. Aight that's it. I'm out. Peace.
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So, I had another small fight with Ligia yesterday. One of many. I'm always the one who starts it by either having a bad attitude of by just being really inconsiderate. I don't know what to do, but I know that something needs to be done to fix us. With this in mind I decided to ask her to move out. Not on the basis of us breaking up, but just 'cause maybe we need a little space for a little while. I'll still see her on weekends just like it used to be in the beginning. I think we might enjoy each others presence alot more if we don't see each other quite as often. Just an idea and I hope to God that it works out. Oh yeah I got my sixth tattoo on Saturday. It's a purple rose on fire. 'Cause I myself feel like a torched rose. And I have a thing against what society believes to be beautiful. I know I have issues and I accept that. Pretty soon I won't be able to count the amount of tattoos that I have 'cause I plan to eventually have a sleeve on my right arm, where I already have five tattoos. I'm always thinking,"what next." I'm gonna be working on that arm for prabably a couple of years 'cause I don't exactly have my own personal money tree, but whatever. I love tattoos, they're so damn addictive.
New favorite quote:"I want to be your tampon," said Prince Charles to his old girlfriend.(I saw it on VH1)
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Today I got my braces off. It's only been six fuckin' years. Yeah you heard right, six FUCKIN' years. I still have to have a retainer for a while but if I feel like it I can take it out. What a feeling. I know what they are always talking about now on television when they mention how slimy their teeth feel. Dudes, it really weird. Today is a happy day. I must show the world. I'm sad that Matthew couldn't share in my glory also 'cause I plan on being sick in an hour in order to not go to work. In the glorious words of the one who refers to himself as Ice Cube,"Today was a good day."
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Now that I got your attention, I may begin.
The day was July 9:
We were excited 'cause that night we (me and ligia) were supposed to go to Kirkland and get Brie and then pick up Russell straight from work in Auburn, head over to Ellensburg, spend the night and than go to warped tour the following morning. At around five o'clock that afternoon Ligia and I head up to her house so she can get some extra clothes before we picked up Brie. We arrived their and she called Brie and told her we were their, but she was told that Brie had to wait for her parents to get home, so she could get some money, before she could go. We kept calling over the next few hours and Brie kept saying that her parents still weren't home. At about nine or ten o'clock we all of a sudden couldn't get a hold of her 'cause she stopped answering her phone. After a couple more hours of this we said fuck it. Until on the last call some fucker answered her phone and was yelling at Ligia to stop calling. Which meant that she continued to call and yell for him to put her on the phone which he did no suck thing. Their was laughing in the backround and I we were getting really pissed off, so we left back home to pack. We did that and then got Russel from the theater, We were on our way.
July 10, 2004
The day was finally here and we were driving to Josh's house searching for the Dairy Queen in order to turn a left like he said, but their was no sign. After talking to Matthew on the phone numerous times it was obvious that I had passed quite a ways back. We turn around and about fifteen minutes later we saw it on the right this time. Of 'course all the lights were off and I could barely see it. I guess before I was looking for a bright DQ symbol 'cause that's just what I'm used to. Oh well, we were finally their and like the sweethearts they are, they left me and Ligia our very own room. That's when you pause and say,"Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh." I did. I was going to sleep and then in a few short hours, excuse me, many long hours later it was warped tour time.
We got up and ............I don't fuckin' really remember but, I do remember long ass lines at Burger King, Taco Bell, and Arbys. And then we left and was at the Gorge about thirty of forty minutes later I think. Avril got us through the long ass drive. Huh, Joshua.
But anyways,
We set up shop on the hill in order to have a meeting ground and we were off to enjoy warped tour (I don't feel like capitalizing it, so fuck you guys). I was in the pit for .......I have a brain fart on the first one, but then it was Taking Back Sunday and Thursday. I was in the front hugging the rail by the way for both of those, so uh, how do you like dem apples huh Andrew.
We were walking around, walking around, and walking around. We saw Lillix. I think I took thirteen pictures of them. I'm not joking at all. They are definately pretty attractive young woman.......I LOVE YOU LIGIA. Then right next to them I saw Red West. He was really cool especially since I was eating a dominos personal cheese pizza at the same time. I also bought his cd for five dollars. FIVE FUCKIN' DOLLARS can you belive that. $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5 $5
Then, after searching for the Lillix tent for nineteen hours it was Yellowcard time. They were awesome except that they only played brand new songs, but oh well, I knew all the words. I listened to a couple other bands while walking around untill it was time to check out Nofx. I really enjoyed them I bought a T-shirt and wanted a cd, but the guy was telling me that they haven't sold any cds at concerts and all this year 'cause they are so cheap and everyone buys them their that their label isn't making any money. Goddammit I was ready to buy another ten dollar cd that rocked ass. I did buy another one though. Can anyone say Tsunami Bomb. It's awesome. After them was Flogging Molly who I was mainly listening too while shopping but I really liked their sound. They were a bit loud though. I never thought in my life I would ever say that, but their was something about them.
Next, was NEW FOUND GLORY. I don't even have to tell you that I thought they were awesome. If you haven't realized I started a new paragraph. I got their just in time. Half a song later I was three or four rows back from the front, but that just wasn't good enough two songs later I was one row and I finally managed to get to the front. I mena the very front. I was hugging the rail once again. Oh yeah, I wasn't just in the front, but in the middle of the front. It was the most perfect spot anywhere in the ampitheatre. I knew all the words and sang all of them right at Jordan in his eyes and he was eyeballing me. He than came down off the stage and was standing right in front of me. He held the microphone to the group on the right and of course I was trying to drown out everyone in that group with my awesome singing voice and then he went to the left of me, a little too far though for me to sing and then he moved it back to me and held it right in front of my mouth and I was the only one singing into it for the period of 4-7 seconds and it was so awesome. I was touching his face and his sides and I patted him on the back, but I knew that that wasn't enough I needed to do something that deserved to be talked about so I reached down and behind him. And I now have the privilege of saying that that night on July 5, 2004 I Timothy Jon Fracker grabbed Jordan Pundik ass. And to all of you that are wondering, it's a pretty tight ass.
My mom is yelling at me to get off the computer now 'cause she has to go to sleep and I did tell Ligia it wouldn't be that long before I went home, but I'm sorry and I must be going now.
One more thing, I'm not sure but the think I might of spelled ampitheatre and maybe privilege wrong, but I don't feel like spell checking right now so fuck off and PEACE!!!
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It's about time I got another tattoo. Me and Matthew both got one together in fact and they fuckin' rule. I got a little devil rocking the headphones. Hells yeah. Oh well, that's it, I just needed to tell the world.
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I fuckin' hate allergies. My eyes are killing me. They ich, so I scratch them and then they hurt like fuck. And for all those the didn't know, Fuck hurts like hell. And well hell just hurts really really bad. But anyways it sucks. My right nostril is stuffed up also and it won't stop leaking.
Another thing that sucks besides my mom's slow ass computer is that I feel like a complete fat ass. Two years ago, I was working out. I had some abs and I was in the best shape of my life. And beside my occasional beer curls I haven't really been doin' shit. Me and Matthew have been trying to get in shape playing handball and it just isn't working fast enough. I'm just one big fat slob. All two-hundred and thirty pounds of me. I want to get back down to two-hundred and fifteen. That's my goal and at this rate it will be another two years 'till that happens.
I hate being lazy. I'm just watchin' my youth go right down the drain and even that's being interupted by the constant commercials.
I do feel alot better in the past couple weeks from all the strenuous handball playing, but you can hardly tell looking at me. Oh well, i suppose it could be worse.
Oh yeah, did I mention that I love Ligia. Well, I do. I just wish that I was shitting money so that we could always go out and have a blast. Not many things in this world doesn't cost money and it really blows goats. I went to game works for the first time on Matthew's B-day. And can you say,"four player air hockey." Holy shit it rocked so much ass and I even got the battle wound to prove it. We need to go again really soon.
I want to put some eyedrops in, but whenever I do it just burns like a motherfucker. I don't think I really have any choice though. If it makes it even a little better than fuck it.
Ligia's mom bought some vacation package deal thing or something that the hotel and cruise or something like that is paid for and she decided to give it to me and Ligia. Ligia is all paid for and all I need to do is come up with a plane ticket and some spending money and we will be off to Orlando, Florida for I think about a week. I need to find out some more information about first though. But, that sounds pretty cool anyways. Besides the fact that I have to come up with a bunch of money to get down there and to be able to eat. It's still a pretty good fuckin' deal. I've never been that far from home before. I just now need to find out when I can go and then it's on.
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In the last 48 hours have you...
01. Cried: I'm just so excited for the new Avril Lavigne cd
02. Bought something: Just bought my warped tour tickets less than one hour ago
03. Gotten sick: Yeah, sick of racer fucks on 405
04. Sang: I too just got done singing,"all downhill from here," then I switched it up a bit for a little ataris
05. Eaten: pumpkin pie and chocolate chip ice cream
06. Been kissed: yes
07. Felt stupid: I never stopped
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: Even though I say it so much, it never loses any meaning -jonze33- a man after my own heart
09. Met someone new: I hate people
10. Moved on: No
11. Talk to an ex: God no
12. Missed an ex: no
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: Jessica Alba's number keeps changing on me, but I guess it's not her fault. I mean she does move around a lot
14. Had a serious talk: I constantly try to explain my love to my one and only
15. Missed someone: wait about an hour and a half when I have to leave Ligia here at home while I go off to work
16. Hugged someone: Yes
17. Fought with your parents: I avoid all contact if possible
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: It's kind of hard to be with someone when they are in the middle of celebrating their two year anniversary as we speak(congrats, by the way)
Social Life:
01. Best girl friend: Their are just so god damn many, but I guess I'll say Ligia for the mean time
02. Best guy friend: Matthew
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Ligia
04. If no, current dating partner: N/A
05. Hobbies: blunts, forties, and bitches
06. Pager: Yeah, ok
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: wall flower
08. What type automobile do you drive: '98 ford escort zx2
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: GMC Denali
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: both
11. Where is the best hangout: anywhere else
12. Do you have a job: forklift driver for UPS woo-fuckin-hoo
13. Do you attend church: Sure
14. Do you like being around people: no
Personal:
01. Who is your role model: Matthew Swartz
02. What is some of your pet peeves: Putting dirty ass dishes in the dishwasher without ever rinsing the fucker. I'm gonna kill that bitch
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: I'm usually on the other end of that question. I've said it once and I'll say it again,"Britney stop calling me, I'm taken."
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: Yes
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Person, place, thing, it really don't matter
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): No, I would never do such a thing
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: duh, why the hell not
08. Would you rather be dumper or dumped: I'd rather be in a relationship
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": Wierd, I didn't even read ahead, but in all those two seconds nothing's really changed. Relationship
10. Want someone you don't have right now: As I said, he's taken
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: liked or like liked? of course
12. Do you want to get married: yeah
13. Do you want kids: I'm ready to deliver the serum if she's ready to deliver another one of me. That's gotta hurt
14. Do you believe in psychics: no, but I bet you knew I was gonna say that didn't you
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: yeah
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: my face, I got killer lips, eh Matthew
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: whiny little bitch
18. Are you happy with you: half and half
19. Are you happy with your life: Yes, it's about time
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: college, but I'm gonna go not this next fall but the fall after that. I mean it this time
Currents:
[Current Clothes ] shitty jeans and worn out black ups shirt
[Current Mood ] I'm having a grand time and I'm very happy
[Current Music ] computer eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
[Current Taste ] saliva
[Current Make-up ] Mary Kay powder perfect loose powder
[Current Hair ] The half I still have is really short
[Current Annoyance ] Ligia's six year old brother trying to wake up twelve year old sister
[Current Smell ] ass
[Current thing I ought to be doing ] not staying fat
[Current Desktop Picture ] I don't know, it ain't mine
[Current Favorite Group ] New Found Glory
[Current Book you're reading ] I don't read books but I look at the pictures does that count
[Current CD in CD Player ] The new New Found Glory
[Current DVD in Player ] none I just finished Gladiator a couple days ago
[Current Color of Toenails ] caramel apple
[Current Refreshment ] saliva
[Current Worry ] moneh moneh moneh........................money
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hey dad
i´m writing to you
not to tell you, that i still hate you
just to ask you
how you feel
and how we fell apart
how this fell apart
are you happy out there in this great wide world?
do you think about your sons?
do you miss your little girl?
when you lay your head down
how do you sleep at night?
do you even wonder if we´re all right?
but we´re all right
we´re all right
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it´s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren´t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother´s heart
you broke your children for life
it´s not ok,
but we´re all right
i remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
i spent so many years learning how to survive
now, i´m writing just to let you know that i´m still alive
the days i spent so cold, so hungry
were full of hate
i was so angry
those scars run deep inside this tattooed body
there´s things i´ll take, to my grave
but i´m okay
i´m okay
[chorus]
it´s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren´t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother´s heart
you broke your children for life
it´s not ok,
but we´re all right
i remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
now, i´m writing just to let you know that i´m still alive
yeah, i´m still alive
sometimes
i forgive
yeah and this time
i´ll admit
that i miss you, said i miss you
[chorus]
it´s been a long hard road without you by my side
why weren´t you there all the nights that we cried
you broke my mother´s heart
you broke your children for life
it´s not ok,
but we´re all right
i remember the days, you were a hero in my eyes
but those were just a long lost memory of mine
now, i´m writing just to let you know that were still alive
and sometimes
i forgive
and this time
i´ll admit, that i miss you, miss you
hey dad
-Good Charlotte-emotionaless
Could anyone possibly know what it's like to be male and to have to grow up and go through life without a father or any type of father figure. It fuckin' sucks. I'm proud to say that I have survived it. It was a long hard crusty disgusting road, but I must admit that I'm the man that I am today because of it and I know that my children will never have to go through what I went through. I don't wish to bestow that kind of grief upon anyone. I don't thinked that I ever really grieved about the whole ordeal, but that is all now catching up with me.
You know what. Fuck him. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK YOU MISTER ROBERT FRACKER!!!
My children are gonna have whatever they want and the life that I never had including a loving father and a wonderful mother. I wish that Ligia wasn't at school right now. I'm all alone in her apartment and it's kind of awkward, but whatever. I really love this girl.
This is not one of those little love ya's. But I am deeply in love. She is everything that I want in a girl. She is the kind of nurturer that I need in my life and I wouldn't give her up for anything in the world. She could gain 150lbs and I would love her just as much as I ever have and no matter what, to me she will always be just a beautiful as ever. Because although I think that she's really hot physically, mentally and spiritually she is so gorgeous that words can't describe. She is just an overall wonderful and decent soul. I am the luckiest man in the world to have found such a love at the young age of twenty. I feel truly blessed.
I wish you all the best of luck in your relationships.
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It sucks not having a computer that works. I never get to talk on aim or even check my LJ for a really long time. I'm actually at work right now using their computer 'cause I'm working the desk. In other words,"not doing shit."
I went to an amazing concert last night. Holy Shit!!!
First off was Mugshot. I never heard them before, but I can say that I was pretty impressed with what I heard. They had some pretty catchy tunes. I was really tempted to buy the EP, but I forgot after the concert and I wasn't about to lose my spot RIGHT UP FRONT HUGGING THE CONCERT STAGE. Yeah that's right you heard my I waiting for almost two hours for the spot and damn was it worth it. Even though it was about eleven fuckin degrees outside.
Jameson Parker was next. It wasn't very up and go type of music though. They are all acoustic. One of the two plays the guitar and the other sings. Oh yeah they were also sitting down the whole time in chairs. They were quite good, but it just wasn't really fun music like what I was waiting for.
And then of course was Allister. I must say the being as close as I was they were fuckin' amazing. Their was not barrier in front of the stage and no security. I could of literally reached out and touched them. I was on the right side of the stage right in front of ........goddamnit..ummmm.. the guy with dyed blond hair and he has just as many vocals as the main guy. Anyways it was great. I was singing right up at him. Once when he leaned down playing a riff to the audience his guitar was two inches from hitting me in the face. Oh my god. Even on one of the songs. I forget what it's called buy there's a bunch of NA NA NA's he pushed the mic stand with the mic in the audience and I had it in my hand singing into it. It was almost the best feeling in the world, but there's more. I lost my voice so hardcore with Allister then I think I'd ever lost it before, but luckily it wasn't gone for too long.
Homegrown Homegrown Homegrown-I LOVE YOU. I just happened to be standing right in front of Johnny. I lucked out like a mother fucker. I love him so much. He's my favorite homegrown member. It was incredible. Because their was not barrier in front of the stage and not security. When people crowd surfed they ended up on the stage. Sometimes I wish I was really little so that I could crowd surf and stage dive. It looked really fun. But anyways, one time someone came up on the stage and hit Johnny's mic stand and moved it back a few inches and he was being funny and instead of moving had the mic on his cheek and trying to lean into it. I was so close that I helped him move the mic back into position for him to continue singing into it and he gave my a look like,"right on man, thanx." It made me feel happy. He even said after a song," I love dick in my ass, I mean it, but don't tell anyone okay." So, I screamed,"I have a dick for your ass," right into his face. After the best concert ever I yelled Johnny really loud right at him and he looked down at me and smiled as I gave him constant praise. I'd like to think that we shared a bond. Homegrown played really well. They played a lot of old shit, but even though I didn't know the words. It was so fuckin' rad I can't even explain it. And I hope at least some of you's reading this is jealous of me 'cause I'm jealous of myself right now.
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I'm on my way to Something Corporate, Mae, Rx Bandits, and The Format. I so fuckin' excited and if you aren't gonna be their then you are a bit fuckin' loser.
Oh yeah, my master cylinder went out on my car and it's in gonna stay in the shop probably for another half-hour to hour then I get to hand the guy a four-hundred dollar check. Lucky me.
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I haven't written anything in a hella long time since I have no computer, but I'm at my mom's now just visiting my cat. It really sux when you haven't been checking anything for a really long time and then you spend an hour reading up on people's lives. You can't exactly post comments on posts from a week or two ago 'cause it'll never get read anyways. The only things I remember is: Matthew, not going to college doesn't make you a loser, otherwise I would be one and I'll have to kick your ass. What makes you a loser is wasting too much of your time thinking about other peoples lives and how supposedly happy they all are. You need to worry about what makes you happy and what you want in life. Then pursue whatever that is to your full extent. Later, you can look back at all those people and think not about how well they're doing but how boring they are and how much of a statistic that they are. If you don't want to go to college then don't. Just be happy with your decision. If you really wanted to go bad enough then you would already be their and learning more about the reasons why you didn't want to go in the first place. College is for some people, but not all people.
Let's see what else.....Oh yeah. Saves the Day was fuckin' awesome. Oh my god! I think that it was one of my favorite shows in history. I would have payed triple for that show. It was so great.
I don't know much else to write. I kinda miss running into Matthew every few days or so for twenty minutes. Best Buy every Tuesday. Well, before Kay that was. I heard that Kay and my cousin actually hung out a couple of times and it's still kinda freakin' me out. I don't know why. No offense to either of you, but that's just wierd.
My relationship with Ligia to me is just sorta wierd. I always think, okay this weekend I'm not gonna be sexual at all 'cause I don't want her to think that that's all I care about, but when I see her sexy ass, well, you know the rest. Another wierd thing about the relationship is that it's actually a relationship. I have never had a true relationship before. I've had plenty of friends (wink wink) and when I was little it was all about who could get the hottest girl and then how far you could get with them. It was never about,"hmm, I wonder if I could spend the rest of my life with this person or not." I have yet to buy Indian Jones or Something Corporate 'cause I'm waiting 'till I get paid on Friday. Which I guess is technically today.
Last week I was really excited 'cause I've been working five days a week which is about 57 hours and all I had was my phone bill of fifty bucks. Psha. Untill I looked at it and saw that it was two-hundred and fifty bucks. Can you believe it I went over by two-hundred fuckin' dollars. I've never gone over in the two and a half years of having the same plan and when I did, boy did I go over.
I love you Matthew. Just thought I'd throw that it their. I miss your sexy ass. And I haven't seen your hair in a while, but ol' school dread type of hair. That was the shit.
Oh god, I just hawked up the king of all lugies. I better go spit him out. It was nice holla'in at ya'll.
PEACE!!!
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Well, my life at the new apartment is really boring. I ain't got shit to do. I don't have cable yet 'cause I lost the guys number that I'm supposed to call and am in the process of getting it again. Josh has yet to bring over his dvd player 'cause it's at his girlfriends and she is never home when he goes over their. Oh yeah, on top of that, my stereo isn't reading cd's which means that I have to listen to the radio all the fuckin' time and they play the same eight songs in a fuckin' row.
I haven't bought any dvd's lately 'cause I don't want to buy them if I can't watch them immediately when I get home. It sux. New cd's would include, new MXPX, new Saves The Day, new Yellowcard, first Midtown cd, and of course a couple AFI cd's. I only need two more. I'm horrible at remembering names of cd's and names of songs. Although I do know cd covers and then the track numbers. I only need two more AFI albums in order to have all six. I'm going in backwards order which means that I need the first two. Duh!
I have my tickets to see Something Corporate, Mae, The Format, and of course Rx Bandits. I'm so excited. I'm going with my cuz again. It should be fun. The Showbox is a great and fantastic venue.
I'm practicing with my butterfly knife alot lately, so if anyone wants to start shit, lets fuckin' go beotches.
Speaking of that. I was driving with Ligia through Kirkland towards the freeway to the Shoxbox and we saw her old step dad driving in his car. She was kinda freeked out and after long thought after we had passed him, I came to the conclusion that I wish I would of followed that fucker and slit his fuckin' throat for what he did to my girl. Jail would be worth the feeling of knowing that the world would be a much better place without that fucker. I was angry for remainder of the drive to the Showbox. I felt bad that I wasn't talking, but only plotting ways to kill that stupid fuckin' bastard.
I got a ticket for $1,076. I was driving and I squeeled my tires around a couple corners in a school zone. I wasn't speeding, but none the less the fuckin' pig said that it was neglagent in the 2nd degree. This is the second time with the same ticket. The difference is that the first time I was driving a lot faster racing some chick and my ticket was only $490. The guy was the biggest fuckin' asswhole I've ever met in my entire life he was yelling at me to an extreme and never even game me a chance to fuckin' talk. I was thinking about getting a Best Buy card and making payments on a computer but after I take this to court, It looks as if I'll have other payments to make. By the way this is it. It this ticket stays on my record whether it's reduced or not I'll lose my license for six months. I'm kinda glad though 'cause I'll same lots of money and maybe I can just sell my car on top of that. No insurrance payment is an awesome thing. My insurrance is about $300 a month. I'll still have to insure it 'cause it's technically still owned by Ford, but with my mom the only insurer it'll probably be $100 a month or even less. The shitty thing about all this is that I won't be able to drive up and see my girlfriend nearly enough. That sux monkey ball, but I guess I'll have to figure it out when that time comes. Finding a ride to work shouldn't be a problem 'cause Josh is thinking about working back at UPS with me.
My sister made the comment to me that I should go to her Birthday party with her friends at some restaurant and that it'll be fun. She said that she has plenty of friends their and a few of them would even by single. I replied with,"Well that's nice and all, but I'm not single." Then this is what gets me. She then said,"Oh, well I don't consider that a relationship." And bam. What a fuckin' bitch. She says that it doesn't mean that I can't look and that her and her man have an agreement that they can both look and each other are fine with it. How the fuck can she even justify being with someone when the whole time she's looking for someone better. What a fuckin' slutty slut slut slut.
I don't have a computer just as I mentioned earlier, but I came over here to Matthews to see if he wanted to go to Best Buy together before I had to go to work, but I guess he was at work. Goddammit Matthew, we never hang out anymore. Where are you? I'll check back with LJ occasionaly. Either here or at my cousins house. I can't go to long without it. I know it's sad, but whatever. I needed to get a couple things off my chest. That is partly why I wrote a pretty long enty.
That is all.
Peace.
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[01 Sep 2003|04:04pm] |
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I've been really lazy to write anything lately, but here it goes.
Drive-Thru Invasion Tour was fuckin' awesome. I really liked The Early November even though I never really heard any of their music. I think I want to pick up the cd. Senses Fail was good I guess, but I didn't know any of their material which made it hard to really enjoy them. Allister was pretty fuckin' rad. It was really fun in the pit while listening to them. They were really lively. Next was Homegrown. Three words: HOLY FUCKIN' SHIT. They were awesome. I knew every one of their songs and I met and talked to Adam. He signed my shirt and a sticker. He seemed really cool and after talking to him and then listening to him singing, it just really pumped me up. It was unbelievable. Last of all was The Starting Line. They were really good, but I was so exhausted from Homegrown that I couldn't enjoy them to my full extent. Also, I didn't know a shit load of the stuff that they played, so I couldn't sing along as much as I wanted to.
All in all the concert was well worth the time and the money.
I'm trying right now to think of something else that's interesting in my life, but all I keep coming back to is how much I care for Ligia right now. And I know how tiring it must be to hear that all the time, so never mind then.
I'm thinking about going to the Westport this weekend with Brandon and some of his friends. I haven't gone in a long time, so I think it'll be fun to get away and to get really fuckin' sloshed. Maybe this time I'll try to deal with it a little more accordingly rather than to act like a fuckin' fool every time. Although it is really fun when doing so.
That is all for now, so Peace Out
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Today I was at work when a supervisor walked by and informed me that my t-shirt might be considered as offensive to some people and that I need to turn my shirt inside out or to cover it up. I told him that I'd rather not look like a fag for the rest of the day and would much rather just go home and change. He saw that I was a bit upset and let me go home and change my shirt.
I arrived about an hour later back at work and I was wearing a suit. I got about a million and a half double takes and a few who were laughing that ass off about how much of a smart ass I was. It was awesome.
I ran a desk today at work all by myself and it was only my third day in training. It felt really good to actually know what I was doing in swapping out containers and sending people to their assigned designations. People looked to me like I was important and asked me questions like I new what the fuck I was talking about.
In other news: I have never felt so stongly towards anyone like I do right now for Ligia. I miss her dearly and can't wait to see her tomorrow. I think that things are going good again and I think that they will continue to get better.
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